Journey

It seems i am about to start a transforming experience, at least thats what i'm hopping it will be.

Not feeling a sense of direction can be both as gratifying and as it can be grieving. How are you supposed to get somewhere if you don't know where are you going? Or even worst, if where you chose to go ends up being what you thought it was, i guess it never is.

But life should be seen as full of possibilities, when you find blocks and limiters your mind would find a way. You know you can do anything you put your mind to, but how do you know if you are putting your mind into something thats worth your time. Do you feel it? Do you learn it? Do you create it ?

I want to start writing, i really do, but somehow i get caught in the moment when im thinking about things i would like to present the other people with, and start thinking more and more details about them, and can actually create accurate pictures of what they do and how they are.. Those should be my characters..

I have so many ideas in a single second, i cant find a way to hold more than one second.

Im literally falling asleep while writing this..

gnight

Patience

I don't have much patience, but thats something i think i need to work on, but why? This is who i am..

I'm watching a video and thought of this, i think i od'ed on thoughts and have been missing out, on feelings.. ha bipolar my ass.. im just confused :P i'll watch the end of the video and keep writing in a while..

Wow, im glad i didnt post this before i finished watching the video.. I think that i was a little bit excited but it turned out that i didnt get to anything new, or learned anything, still, i wont let this chance go away without moving forward, i have my perception, and want to keep it, i dont want to be in a no perception zone, because i've been there, it kinda sucks lol..

Later

Back, for good??

It's been 2 years since my last post, i actually don't believe in this, you know, talking about personal stuff or sharing what are you doing with anyone who might have enough free time to stumble on and read,but i guess im in for a shot.. I'll try to make it fair, share constantly ;) . Been using twitter more now, so you can check up on there, i'll definitely post more often there.

Just finished a basketball game, i lost all my aim :( haven't played in a real team for 5 years, miss it so bad, the referee was actually my team coach 7 years ago, we talked for a while, and i think he is still the same as he was, which is something i just cant understand, how can a man with so much time be the same, there is obviously room for improvement, but thats just what i think, what if he really found the way he want his life to be, who am i to tell him otherwise, over thinking this always make my head hurt..

oh, i just remembered i wanted to try helium, also for writing, but never seem to do it.. im just looking for things to make me feel the same as i did.. im with the same notebook i turned to when i was 16 (im 22 now) and find myself writing the same things i did..

this always happens, i cant find to make up my mind and stayed focus on something, i've wont land anywhere :( i just erased what i wrote here because i could make any sense of it..

meh i guess thats good for now ;)

i feel better ( i exceed the need of smileys in my writing, but how can you tell the face im trying to deliver this words with :P you know, i have to trow in the feeling)

peace

Kiara, Molly & Shatzi

I'm not even sure thats how their names are spelled but i love those dogs!! They are all awesome, well, their different, one is like really lazy, the other is a little shy and the last one has something going on with her jaw, i'ts kinda cute :)!!

New phone!

Well new phone means infinite possibilities, and one of them is more posts in my blog, i'll upload videos from time to time and hope someone keeps tracks of it..